This past week has been rough. Mini Me returned Sunday afternoon from her trip to Disney with her dad and it has proven to be a very difficult week of transition for her. She was extremely tired on Sunday evening after Little Miss Geek left. Then Monday it was back into the routine of school and gymnastics and life in general.
Monday was going well until we got to the gym for gymnastics. Mini Me ran into the bathroom and then came up to me crying saying she had diarrhea. Baby Geek had his class so I asked her what she wanted to do and she opted for going through with class. We were all the way over there plus she had a meet this morning and she had missed the week before because of their vacation. She pushed through practice making several trips to the bathroom and even saying she threw up once. But she did it.
Tuesday was better but she still complained of a stomach ache. Wednesday everything fell apart. Baby Geek had also gotten out of the routine of things and he was being very difficult. Mini Me had a complete meltdown about going to practice Wednesday. Again saying her stomach hurt. I was in a difficult place because I knew that she needed to go to practice for the meet yet I didn’t want to push her too hard. Finally, she decided she would go to practice. After about an hour the smiles were back and she was very glad she went and decided she wanted to come again Thursday night for a make up practice.
Things got a lot better on Thursday, although Baby Geek continued to be a challenge and today it Mini Me’s extra practice time paid off. She did very well at her meeting this morning. She did better than her first meet and stayed on the balance beam. She earned mostly red and blue ribbons so we were very pleased. It was an early morning for us but she was so thrilled with going to the meet and how well she did. She got a new leotard as part of competing in the meet and won a drawing for some gymnastics balm to help with the blisters and cracked hands and feet that come with being a gymnast. She competes again at the beginning of April and I know she will only continue to improve.
After I got home from the meet I was able to make it to my contemplative prayer group and got a bit of the nourishment I needed after the week. I think I’ll share a bit of what came to me as it turned out to be pretty helpful for me. We were using a centering prayer where you repeat one short word to enter into your meditative state. This is what came to me.
Peace. Peace. Peace, I say to myself, waiting for something to come. All thoughts of the outside world I dismiss. Peace. Peace. Peace. Still nothing comes. All I hear is my own voice inside my head. Peace. Peace. Peace. Small bursts of light appear behind my closed lids but still nothing, only silence. Peace. Peace. Peace. All other thoughts are gone. I still only sense silence. Peace. Peace. Peace. The notion dawns on me, perhaps that is what God needs me to have this day after the hectic, crazy, busy week I’ve had. I fall into the silence and welcome it. God has granted me my centering word. Peace. Peace. Peace.