There are a lot of difficult things associated with being a divorced parent and having to share your time with your child.
This week I’m dealing with a difficult one. Mini Me is off this week to Disneyland with her dad. This is not the first time she had gone with him and her dad’s family to Florida and to Disney. It was really hard the first time to not be with my child when she got to experience it for the first time. It is still hard this time.
I find myself walking a fine line. I am very happy for her because I know she will have a wonderful time and as a parent her happiness comes first and foremost. But I am also sad for myself because I haven’t been able to take her myself. I want so badly to be able to go and share that experience with her. I know that the time will come and we will eventually be able to do it but money has been so tight lately it has been very disheartening to be unable to do it.
Little Miss Geek is also going to Disney with the female who gave birth to her so the Geek is also experiencing this same sense of pain and disappointment. We are trying to remind ourselves that we the time comes and we also get to make the trip they will still love it and still have a great time. In fact, it might even be better because they are friend in addition to sisters and it is always more fun to have friends. Plus we still have the Baby Geek and his joy will be for the first and only with us.
But it still sucks.